I've spent the past couple of months feeling very sorry for myself. I'm living in a new state with no friends or family. Starting from scratch. I've been having my own little pity party. Well it needs to stop.
I am SO richly blessed! I have a wonderful job, a roof over my head, and food to eat. I'm starting to make friends, which is hard for me to do. Its scary to open yourself up to new people and be vulnerable and hope they accept you for who you are.
I can look back at the last quarter century (my life) and see so many blessings! I'm ashamed for sitting back and feeling sorry for myself just because I'm in a new place. I am so blessed to have a second chance. I thank God for it. As much as I miss everyone in Lafayette, I know that God has a future hope for me and that hope will not be cut off. It is tough for me to hear about all the good things God is doing back 'home' in Lafayette and wonder if its because I'm not there anymore. I know that's probably just Satan in my head. I'm excited that things are going so well in Lafayette and I know God has wonderful things in store for that part of the body of Christ. I'm so thankful for the time I got to spend there and the friendships that were made. I love and miss you all!
Looking forward: my new pastor told a story today about William Borden. He was called to be a missionary to China around 1912. He came from a wealthy family, was heir to a millionaire's fortune, and left it all to serve God in the mission field. But he died alone in Egypt on his way to China. Some people thought he was throwing away his life. Following his death, an inscription was found in his Bible that read: No reserves, no retreats, no regrets. If you don't know his story, I'd encourage you to read about him. (http://home.snu.edu/~HCULBERT/regret.htm)
2 comments:
Good for you! It's cool when those moments happen and we can recognize what we've been doing to ourselves and how we can change our own lives. I've been running aground on a few things as well and you've helped me realize that it just "needs to stop."
Thanks so much for being open and all that jazz. I will keep praying for you and hope that all is going well with you!
Emily, it is such a vulnerable moment when we realize how blessed we are. I do have to say that a LOT is happening in Lafayette, however it is not because you are gone. WE MISS YOU!!!!:) I know that God had a plan for you to move clear across the states and you are right he is not done with you yet.
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