Escape!

I feel strangely free today. I faced something difficult yesterday. Something that potentially will affect my entire career. I had to face portions of my past (the last 7 years!) in an interview with a PI and discuss them in excruciating detail. I was nervous about reliving certain areas of the past with a stranger. I don't have a perfect background - far from it, actually. But none of it was new to the PI since I had admitted to it already on the form that began this whole process. However, because of my response to several questions, he needed to walk through a certain period in my life in painful detail. That was the most difficult part. I didn't want to relive the past. I wanted to leave it where it was - in the past.

Something that my bible study leader, Lenny, told me was really helpful. He said that grace and honesty are the way to escape the past. This interview has been hanging over my head for months now and I didn't realize how much it had been affecting me. But yesterday, after I discussed all the brutal details with this PI, it was just suddenly over. There's nothing left for me to do. I told the truth and the rest is out of my hands.

I believe that God opened doors to bring me to this place - as much as it hurts to have left so many wonderful friends in Lafayette. I'm so thankful for those friends because I wouldn't have made it through that horrible time in my life without them. Little did they know that I would later call on them to testify about it! Haha! Thanks, though... I owe you all! How about a Super Bowl party at my house this year? ;-)